Finding beauty in a sea of weeds
Should we start with the good news or bad news first? 2020 has essentially felt like nothing but bad news, so let’s start with the good. Today was my 14th PET scan - my third in the last six months. I think at this point I’m beginning to give off a subtle radioactive glow. On … Continue reading It’s Complicated.
It was late in the morning on a warm Friday afternoon. I was out of work, still recovering from the lymph node biopsy I had the Tuesday before. Joe was off on our regular 3 days and was playing with the kids on the living room floor. I was sitting in the chair next to … Continue reading May 15.
Today is Easter. I am supposed to be at the beach with my family and friends celebrating. We were supposed to watch the sun rise over the water this morning as we remembered our Risen Savior. There was supposed to be bike rides and boardwalk walking and laughs and late nights. There was going to … Continue reading Hope in Uncertain Times.
I've felt exceptionally down this last week - physically and emotionally. It has been a number of things, but the culminating moment came on Monday morning. A fun trip to Washington DC on Sunday, turned south quickly for me. I woke up feeling woozy and by the end of the day was leaning over a … Continue reading Cancer: an open letter.
It was my senior year of college. My journey to this point was a non-traditional one. One year at a Bible Institute (shoutout to my WOLBI people!) studying the Bible and only the Bible, two years at a christian liberal arts college (hey Grace College alum, go Lancers!) studying biology, a brief one year hiatus … Continue reading Study Subject.
It was scan week again. This one was my 11th PET scan. You’d think by now I’d be accustomed to the pre-scan diet and the days of waiting that come between the scan and the results. But the truth is, I’m not sure you ever get used to those things. The day between my scan … Continue reading Scanxiety 2.0
Occasionally my kids like to walk quietly into my room while I am still asleep and stand next to my bed until by some sixth-motherly sense, I realize they are there and wake up in a hot sweat. Whether they have said anything or not, I’m never quite sure. I just know that one minute … Continue reading Thoughts on death.
Many of our sweet girls that have lived in our home have come from hard places. When they would tell stories about their childhoods, they would talk about their circumstances so cavalierly. They would talk about crackheads on the corner, watching domestic abuse in their home or having a family member be incarcerated. They would … Continue reading The new normal.
I had my PET scan this morning. For those unfamiliar with a PET scan, here is what happens: I fast for 3 days of all carbohydrates and sugars. {It's as awful as it sounds.} Then I go to the hospital, down into the basement where the Nuclear Medicine department is located. It's as dark, serious … Continue reading Scanxiety.
We took a lovely trip to the beach recently as a student home. We got there without a hiccup. The traffic through Philly was light - which is almost an oxymoron - there were no emergency bathroom breaks, the weather was sunny and warm, we found great parking spots and a perfect place to set … Continue reading I hope the sun comes out.
Daring to Hope 